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What insanity! I truly became my own worst enemy.
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Thus, I caused the very abandonment I feared! Only it was I who was abandoning the rest of my life in order to be a slave to my addiction. My mind and heart became prisons about which I couldn’t let anyone else know. As I drew further into myself, I became isolated emotionally. There was more and more to avoid being conscious of. As my addiction grew and consumed me from the inside out, I had to repress more and more of my feelings. To protect myself from total abandonment, I kept this part of my life hidden from everyone. If my secret ever got out, I would be rejected, cast out and alone. I was sure if anyone knew the “real me,” if anyone knew about my problem, they would despise me as much I despised myself. I thought of myself only as a despicable sinner, a monstrous hypocrite, and a colossal weakling. I not only hid what I did, I also hid what I thought of as my true self. When I was still in my addiction, I hid a lot of things. Addiction is always attended by secrecy and shame. (Mosiah 26:29 Alma 22:18) (Heart t’ Heart scriptural version)Īddiction presents a serious challenge to our honesty. Honestly shared this inventory with God and with another person, thus demonstrating the sincerity of our repentance, and our willingness to give away all our sins that we might know Him. Step 5: Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.